We Are The Storytellers

Inside every human mind is a storyteller.  You know, the guy who fills in the blanks.  The guy that looks at all of the facts (or as many as he has been trained to), and tells you what's going on from your perspective. 

I like to call him Stotler.  He's great and all, but what if he isn't always right?  What if his intentions are in our best ineterest, but the stories aren't true?  Does it really matter?  If he's wrong, we are then being told a lie, no matter how well willed that lie is.  It's generally some kind of justification.

You see, we believe what we choose to believe and often what we see is some kind of justification for the feelings we have at our core beliefs about ourselves.

Maybe we should all be paying attention to our negative feelings, eh?  Just kidding. There's no such thing as maybe. ;)

One that used to come up for me was, "I am not deserving of the love this person has for me" and so my brain would come up with, "She's only being a good friend.  She doesn't really care that deeply for you.  See how she said that?  That means she isn't really interested in you, it's just a 'curtesy flirt'." When, in fact, I knew she really did.  It was evident through her state of being, her words, her expressions, her behavior, but my core belief about myself wouldn't have it, so it told me I didn't have enough to offer in what could have easily been the best relationship. ever. (At our age, with the necessary bounderies, taking into account as many of the aspects of future that I could, of course ;) Well, I wish I had cleared all of that up back then, but I hadn't and that is ok. 

I have learned and I know that what I thought wouldn't work really would not have worked, even if it had progressed to a serious relationship.  Now, however, I have much more of an advantage in shaping those relationships I want and keeping them there, so you all better be prepared for some serious lovin's.

Toodle Oodle Noodle Ooo.