Ever since I was one of the littles, I've had a desire to sit and be with God.

As a little, I remember kneeling and praying, a good amount of tears, and questions unanswered in those moments.  I remember often feeling more lost after praying than I was before I had prayed, I remember trying to discover exactly what the Holy Ghost was to me, I remember trying my hardest to listen to the promptings of the Spirit, but there were very few times I can remember actually acting on what I wanted.  I would kneel there with my eyes wet and glistening, looking up to the heavens, waiting for some mighty love and all powerful presence to envelope me.

Many times did I pray, waiting for an answer that I didn't think would actually come, because answers never seemed to come.

I did write down a few of those prayers.  They're in various notebooks and I'll come across one of them every once in a while.  Every time I do see one, I get struck with the recognition that I always received an answer.  Always.  Within the same week of most of those prayers, there was an additional entry, relating something I had learned that week.  I don't remember if I had connected the dots back then, but now I have the opportunity to see that I always received exactly what I wanted or needed to grow and move on.  Now, it's a bit of a different story.  I have this intuition that points me exactly which way to walk.  I'm not perfect at following it, but I do know the direction I'm headed and that every step through the fogginess opens your eyes to space you couldn't have seen if you'd stood exactly where you were just a few moments before.  I know how to listen to my intuition.

No, I don't get to sit and be with God.  That's still a ways away.  However, I do know now that His desire is to respect and love me as well.  I do know that because I am fallen, it will take effort to reach Him again, but that He also has provided a way for us to return to Him and that He is actively pursuing our return to Him.

Can we have a few moments where we talk about how great God is and why?  I so very dearly enjoy praising my Heavenly Father.  Let me tell you why.  ;)

Dallin